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GermaineCYS, '94

"If you get tired, learn to rest not quit."

Monday, January 26, 2015, 8:58 AM
It feels like everything was just a long dream

And yes, i'm just gonna treat it as I've just woken up from this very long dream.
But taking it as you no longer exists is impossible,

I felt like other than constantly trying to make myself feel better all the time, i secretly wanted you to care as well. However i'm pretty disgusted with my actions on twitter, I've decided to delete those senseless tweets as i can't help but feel so childish. Emotions get the better of me, when i drink, when i'm heavy hearted in the night. No more, i promise.

How i actually tried to make myself feel better are just temporary relief, I've decided to stop because i don't want to disappoint the people close to me any longer. I suppose the best way to move on, is to just live my life as per normal, keep myself busy & doing the things i enjoy. That's my priority now (:

Of course letting go isn't easy, 24 days and still in this state, i suppose this is how it should be like when you want to be with someone so much but they can no longer be by your side anymore.

What's holding me back are the memories we had, him as a person..
But pressing the delete button to the conversations, photos and recordings we had. It is really really not easy, i wish i had the courage to. I wonder if u did it without hesitation..







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