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Tuesday, August 26, 2014, 11:06 PM
Today is the 27th of August 2014 and exactly 2 more months to my big 2!Time flies very quickly these few years. Thinking back on my younger days, i thought to myself how will i be like when i'm older. No idea whether did i live to my expectations or not. Being single, I did not expect 24 days had just past like that and i'm glad that i am doing well. 3 weeks ago, i was still angry, frustrated and hurt. But i can tell myself now, that i've gotten over it. I just wanna live a happy life and not having to experience that pain again. Although i was the one who decided to let go, which i've promised to never. After all, i guess promises are meant to be broken. We can say we promise to anything, but committing to that promise, its another issue to consider. I did not decide to let go for no reasons so i did not let myself down in any sense. In fact, it was a release. That relationship was a Direct Cost for me, I think if i was given a chance to turn back time, i would not change a thing but end it earlier just like he wished for i suppose. Of course, in every relationship there are happy times and i am contented to just be able to experience that short term of happiness. That 1 week before i've decided to end things was really hard, i thought to myself and how is it possible that one can change so much in 1 week. On top of that, i was tired of being the one always trying, i suppose this is one of god's obstacle for me. Happiness is not easily obtained, life is not perfect. From now on, i am just gonna do the best for myself. Finish polytechnic, go to work, put a smile on my family's face. Have the simple and happy life i always wanted. hopefully years down the road, i can come back here and say i've achieved all 3. :) |
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